Saturday, 23 April 2011

Feminizing drug regimens and living full-time in the female gender

Hello Girls,

Just this once I am putting aside the fantasy of TG Captions, much as I love them, and I am going to talk to you seriously about feminising medication.

New edit of this post - May 2013:

I don't know if any of you are serious about really becoming girls, but if you are - SEE A DOCTOR. Originally I posted a Feminising Medication Regimen here, but my advice now is don't go it alone and self-medicate if you can possibly get medical supervision.  In the U.K., visit your local G.P. surgery and get them to refer you to a Gender Identity Clinic.  These are run by the NHS and most big cities in the U.K. have one. 

I currently take only 1. and 2. below.  This is under medical supervision and I have regular bloodtests to monitor my hormone levels (estrogen and testosterone).
  1.  4 mg Estradiol daily - eg. Elleste Solo (prescribed by the NHS) or Estrofem (available online from InHousePharmacy) – one 2mg tablet in morning, one 2mg tablet  in evening.  Estradiol alone will produce marked feminisation of the body, including breast growth and more feminine fat distribution on hips, within a few months.
  2. 5 mg Finsasteride in the morning (in the U.K., you can get this from your G.P. on the NHS, if you have a dodgy prostate - BHP - Benign Prostatic Hyperplasia).
  3. DO NOT take Spironolactone - dangerous!
PLEASE NOTE:  I am not a doctor or medically trained.  You should NOT start taking feminizing hormones unless you are absolutely sure you want to do this. In my case it came from somewhere so deep down in my psyche and subconscious that it was inevitable that I would do it eventually.    

It SHOULD be done under medical supervision and the feminising drugs should preferably be prescribed by a Gender Identity Clinic.

If you have to self-medicate (NOT recommended), you can obtain the feminising hormones from an Internet supplier such as InHousePharmacy. They deliver anywhere in the world, it's the real proprietary medicine, and thay are prompt and reliable on delivery.  In the U.K., you may have to pay 20% V.A.T. plus £8 handling charge to the Post Office when you import the drugs, but it is quite hit and miss whether the Post Office charges these import duties and handling fees.  On two deliveries from InHouse Pharmacy I had to pay it, but on another one I didn't, so it seems to depend on the efficiency (or otherwise) of the local Post Office, and maybe what mood they are in.

It is wonderful and truly liberating that one can control one's own feminizing drug regimen, and it has only been possible to do this since the advent of the Internet - certainly no one could do it in the 1970s, 1980s,or 1990s - or I might have started a lot sooner.

BUT, and here is a very important point, you should still at least tell your G.P. what you are taking, in case there is any conflict with other medication. My G.P. (a woman), knew what I was doing, and was pretty good about it.  Taking female hormones has well-known risks associated with it for women or men.  If becoming the woman you have always felt yourself to be is important enough to you, you will no doubt proceed in spite of the risks - but be aware of them.

I was surprised to realise, looking back on my invoices from  Inhouse Pharmacy that I had  been taking female hormones for over 5 years before I started getting them prescribed on the NHS. So I guess it's not surprising that I have boobs and a curvy shape - my hips have broadened, and my fat distribution is pretty female - my arms and legs look feminine, and it has also feminised my face. 

I did not begin with the full pre-SRS MtoF transsexual feminising regimen when self-medicating; I started with just 2 mg of Estradiol (Estrofem or Progynova) for most of that time, building up to 4 mg per day.  That is enough to promote breast growth - you start to see the difference after 6-9 months.

I was lucky in that I started with a fairly un-masculine body to begin with - I an not that tall, I can wear a normal female size of shoes, and I have always had broad hips and rather narrow shoulders, and not much musculature - so my body lapped up the female hormones from the beginning.  I am also blonde, which means that body hair has not been a great problem, and it has now reduced to a female level anyway.l.

In 2011 I began living full-time in the female gender role, changed my name by deed poll, and had facial feminisation surgery  (FFS) performed by The Facial Team in Marbella, Spain.  See my Blog about this:

Facial Feminisation Surgery Post 1

Facial Feminisation Surgery Post 2

I have also had quite a lot of laser and electrolysis hair removal treatments to get rid of facial hair, and can now manage with no foundation at all.  Electrolysis is the most effective way to remove facial hair permanently, but is VERY painful and a long process which can take years.

Now I've transitioned, I am able to go shopping en femme with my wife, and I don't get stared at.  I guess I just look like a woman. My wife says when we are shopping and she looks round, she just sees another woman - and doesn't always realise it's me! There is nothing illegal about wearing women's clothes - half the population of the world do it anyway, and more and more folk born with XY chromosomes are also choosing to dress and live as women.  And why not? 

I have my own shoulder length blonde hair, and so don't have to wear a wig, and my boobs are big enough to give me a good cleavage if I wear something low-cut. But I dress sensibly, and wear what other women around my age wear.  It's great to be able to spend as long as I want looking at lingerie and women's clothes and shoes without feeling embarrassed!  I am working hard on developing a feminine voice; this is a real challenge! More on this is a future blog. 

I hope this has been some help to a few of you - please do let me know by commenting.

'Normal service' - ie. a naughty TG Caption or two - will be resumed in my next blog.

Hugs and kisses x x x Amber

Sunday, 10 April 2011

A Celebrity Visitor comes to St. Hildegarde's High

   Some of you have doubted that  St. Hildegarde's actually exists, and think it is a figment of my warped imagination.  Well, if you have read the final part of 'School for Sissies' in Forced Femme & Girlhood Vol. 1, you will know it is in north Derbyshire, England, near the village of Ashton Cross.
   (To read the earlier parts of 'School for Sissies', see School for Sissies Vol. 1 and School for Sissies Vol. 2.)

   We recently had a celebrity visistor from the U.S.A., who had heard about how we are helping mothers who have difficult and unruly boys - we turn them into docile and biddable girls - and the mothers are so pleased!

   Anyway, can you recognise who our celebrity guest is?  Here's a clue - she flew in all the way from Alaska!

What do I like?

Hi Girls,
   Well, it will be obvious from my own TG Caps here and the TG Fiction magazines I favour (links at top of page) that, if I may slip into my Sothern Belle drawl for an instant, 'Ah jes' lurrrvve' those forced feminisation caps and stories that involve total and complete feminisation, because I guess this is my wish for myself (and I am getting ever closer to it).
    The following elements are essential, in my view - female hormones, growing breasts, and final gender reassignment surgery of the poor ex-male's 'down belows' so the new 'she' has a beautiful and functional clitty and slotty.
    Optional elements to spice it up can include facial feminisation surgery, vocal cord shaving, and maybe breast implants, but nothing bigger than D cups - because who wants to look like a freak?  I prefer to look like a real girl, a girl who can walk down the street or go shopping without getting stared at.
I am talking about becoming as near to a normal girl as it's possible to get, if you were unfortunate enough to be born with only one girly X chromosome, and one horrid boy Y chromosome, rather than two lovely female X chromosomes.
    Remember girls, we all start off female - for the first few weeks in utero, we are all girls.  It's only after - is it 12 weeks? -  that that perversion of nature, the Y chromosome, instructs the tiny male foetus to start producing testosterone, so that what would have been a cliterous starts to grow into that nasty, ugly male appendage, and what would have been the labia of the vagina start to grow together and fuse into testicles, the laughable turkey giblets that hang between the male's legs.
    So why not have a bit of  hormonal and surgical help to turn us back into our true, feminine selves?
   Go for it girls!  Don't just dream about it, you cross-dreamers, put on panties and a bra, and order up some Estrofem to start your transistion to the girl you long to be, today!  (If you want to know the best place to order female hormones online, post a comment to this and I'll put the link in my next blog.  Likewise, I have found at least two excellent online tutorials on developing a natural feminine voice without need of vocal cord surgery  - just ask me!)
   love & hugs, Amber x x x

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