Monday, 11 July 2011

How Stephen became Stephanie and other transgender tales out now in paperback and Kindle eBook format from Amazon

How Stephen became Stephanie and other transgender tales is now available in the UK in both paperback and Kindle eBook from  and in the U.S from Kindle eBook U.S. version and paperback U.S. version.

Also available in:

Germany from
France from
Spain from
Italy from

This is ALL of Kate Lesley's classic transgender short stories, which first appeared in serialized form in FFG's transgender fiction magazines, Tales of Crossdressing, Tales of Sissy School, Tales of the Maid and Forced Femme and Girlhood.

The magazine serialisations, some with full colour pictures, are available from (digital version) and (original printed magazines), .

The book features eleven classic stories on themes of male to female transgenderism - tales of forced feminization, sex change, sissy schools, maid training, petticoat punishment, cross-dressing and transvestism.

'I was Aunt Mary's Sissy' - An eccentric aunt who dislikes boys takes her nephew in hand, and soon has the niece she desires....

'I Turned my Husband into a Girl ' - Classic tale from the point of view of the wife, who is sure that things will work out better for both of them if John is turned into Joanne.....many surprises, and a breathtaking ending.

‘A Walk on the Wild Side’ – Experience a taste of transgender real-life – eavesdrop on the conversation of two transvestites on the streets of Manchester’s Gay Village in the 1990s.

'The Lady of the Lake' - Dark Ages fantasy inspired by the 'Iron John' story, a fairy tale first set down by the Brothers Grimm. Explores the theme of recovering lost parts of ourselves.

'How Stephen became Stephanie' - Stephen's landlady conspires with his personnel manager at work to change him into a supermarket check-out girl and part-time maid.

'New Girl on the Ward' - Nicholas has always had a 'thing' about nurses - but he never dreams that one day he will be wearing that blue uniform himself. The story of a young man's transformation into a female nurse.

'Mother's New Daughter' - A mother begins her plan to feminise her son and change him into the daughter she has always wanted.

'Virtual Reality Woman' - By the early years of the new Millennium there is an unemployed male underclass. The feminist Dr. Hannah Klonek, suggests a solution - to make boys much more like girls. A young male postgraduate is invited to wear the prototype Total Virtual Reality suit and try out the program. And so Andy becomes Laura. A surprise awaits Laura when she discovers what has been done to her real body....

Jackie and Melanie Take Charge - Kevin can’t believe his luck when two attractive, sophisticated women pick him up and take him back to their hotel room in Bangkok. But Kevin has fallen into a complicated web of intrigue woven by two formidable female academics. Their research takes on a practical turn when they inveigle Kevin into dressing as a girl, and slowly Kevin is transformed completely into an attractive blonde.

School for Sissies – Fran├žois is left fatherless and his mother Lydia is appointed to a teaching job at a girls’ preparatory school. Having already taken pleasure in dressing her son as a girl while he was a toddler, she decides he is to be enrolled at the school as a girl. Francoise settles into the life of a girl, and spends five happy years at St. Saviours. When Francoise is eleven years old, her mother begins to think about how Francoise’s education as a girl can be continued.

Lydia resolves to start her own private high school for girls, with the financial backing of wealthy friends. Lydia’s ‘special’ educational methods of corset training, sissification and petticoat punishment are introduced. Boys who resist sissification are put into tight corsets and undergo complete petticoat punishment. The new 'girls' are started on ‘vitamin’ pills which are in fact female hormones. At the age of 14 or 15, a regimen of extra female hormones and anti-androgen tablets is added. By the time they are in the Sixth Form; most Stage Four transitioning girls are practically indistinguishable from their genetically female friends. What happens at Stage Five? - Well, you will need to read the story to find out...

Deborah's Decision - Deborah has to choose between a rich and successful businessman and a rather feminine Australian boy whom she meets at work. When she has a night out at a nightclub in London, Deborah encounters a beautiful young woman who turns out to be Tim, the young Australian. Who will Deborah choose – the rich businessman or the Australian girly-boy?

Friday, 3 June 2011

Feminise your husband video

Well girls, another of my YouTube videos has now been banned by YouTube, apparently because it showed bare boobs.  How terrible!  I think what they are really about is censoring members of the transgender community's rights to express themselves freely.

I thought it was in the best possible taste (ahem!), and obviously not intended to be taken too seriously...
There must be arses on YouTube who do nothing except get other people's videos banned.  Apparently it takes only one complaint.  Why do they go onto sites like mine if they know they are likely to be offended? What intolerant, bigotted, small-minded bastards.  I am fighting for freedom of speech, freedom of expression, and freedom for artists and creative people to do what they like.  If you agree with me, please follow me on Twitter:

ambergoth on Twitter

Anyway, see what you think of the video - please DO comment and give me some support for my work, because I am feeling a little discouraged.  Here it is:

Sunday, 22 May 2011

My Completety Feminised Husbands video was banned today by YouTube!

My 'Completely Feminised Husbands' video that I posted back in March on YouTube had nearly 30,000 views, nearly all of them favourable, but it got banned today by YouTube.

You can still view it on this site among my blogs for March:

Please check it out and write a comment.  I didn't think it was that 'strong'?  Okay, a bit naughty, and yes, there are a couple of bare boobies and one or two muff shots in panties, but I don't show a full view of the 'down-belows'  Am I a wicked girl?  Should I be punished?  Or was it just one prude who complained to YouTube about it?  Why do they go on to a site which deals with transgenderism if they are gonna be shocked?

And we got a parking ticket last week for being 8 minutes late getting back to our car - a jobsworth creep of a parking attendant who should have been emasculated at birth.

Definitely not been my week!

Saturday, 23 April 2011

Feminizing drug regimens and living full-time in the female gender

Hello Girls,

Just this once I am putting aside the fantasy of TG Captions, much as I love them, and I am going to talk to you seriously about feminising medication.

New edit of this post - May 2013:

I don't know if any of you are serious about really becoming girls, but if you are - SEE A DOCTOR. Originally I posted a Feminising Medication Regimen here, but my advice now is don't go it alone and self-medicate if you can possibly get medical supervision.  In the U.K., visit your local G.P. surgery and get them to refer you to a Gender Identity Clinic.  These are run by the NHS and most big cities in the U.K. have one. 

I currently take only 1. and 2. below.  This is under medical supervision and I have regular bloodtests to monitor my hormone levels (estrogen and testosterone).
  1.  4 mg Estradiol daily - eg. Elleste Solo (prescribed by the NHS) or Estrofem (available online from InHousePharmacy) – one 2mg tablet in morning, one 2mg tablet  in evening.  Estradiol alone will produce marked feminisation of the body, including breast growth and more feminine fat distribution on hips, within a few months.
  2. 5 mg Finsasteride in the morning (in the U.K., you can get this from your G.P. on the NHS, if you have a dodgy prostate - BHP - Benign Prostatic Hyperplasia).
  3. DO NOT take Spironolactone - dangerous!
PLEASE NOTE:  I am not a doctor or medically trained.  You should NOT start taking feminizing hormones unless you are absolutely sure you want to do this. In my case it came from somewhere so deep down in my psyche and subconscious that it was inevitable that I would do it eventually.    

It SHOULD be done under medical supervision and the feminising drugs should preferably be prescribed by a Gender Identity Clinic.

If you have to self-medicate (NOT recommended), you can obtain the feminising hormones from an Internet supplier such as InHousePharmacy. They deliver anywhere in the world, it's the real proprietary medicine, and thay are prompt and reliable on delivery.  In the U.K., you may have to pay 20% V.A.T. plus £8 handling charge to the Post Office when you import the drugs, but it is quite hit and miss whether the Post Office charges these import duties and handling fees.  On two deliveries from InHouse Pharmacy I had to pay it, but on another one I didn't, so it seems to depend on the efficiency (or otherwise) of the local Post Office, and maybe what mood they are in.

It is wonderful and truly liberating that one can control one's own feminizing drug regimen, and it has only been possible to do this since the advent of the Internet - certainly no one could do it in the 1970s, 1980s,or 1990s - or I might have started a lot sooner.

BUT, and here is a very important point, you should still at least tell your G.P. what you are taking, in case there is any conflict with other medication. My G.P. (a woman), knew what I was doing, and was pretty good about it.  Taking female hormones has well-known risks associated with it for women or men.  If becoming the woman you have always felt yourself to be is important enough to you, you will no doubt proceed in spite of the risks - but be aware of them.

I was surprised to realise, looking back on my invoices from  Inhouse Pharmacy that I had  been taking female hormones for over 5 years before I started getting them prescribed on the NHS. So I guess it's not surprising that I have boobs and a curvy shape - my hips have broadened, and my fat distribution is pretty female - my arms and legs look feminine, and it has also feminised my face. 

I did not begin with the full pre-SRS MtoF transsexual feminising regimen when self-medicating; I started with just 2 mg of Estradiol (Estrofem or Progynova) for most of that time, building up to 4 mg per day.  That is enough to promote breast growth - you start to see the difference after 6-9 months.

I was lucky in that I started with a fairly un-masculine body to begin with - I an not that tall, I can wear a normal female size of shoes, and I have always had broad hips and rather narrow shoulders, and not much musculature - so my body lapped up the female hormones from the beginning.  I am also blonde, which means that body hair has not been a great problem, and it has now reduced to a female level anyway.l.

In 2011 I began living full-time in the female gender role, changed my name by deed poll, and had facial feminisation surgery  (FFS) performed by The Facial Team in Marbella, Spain.  See my Blog about this:

Facial Feminisation Surgery Post 1

Facial Feminisation Surgery Post 2

I have also had quite a lot of laser and electrolysis hair removal treatments to get rid of facial hair, and can now manage with no foundation at all.  Electrolysis is the most effective way to remove facial hair permanently, but is VERY painful and a long process which can take years.

Now I've transitioned, I am able to go shopping en femme with my wife, and I don't get stared at.  I guess I just look like a woman. My wife says when we are shopping and she looks round, she just sees another woman - and doesn't always realise it's me! There is nothing illegal about wearing women's clothes - half the population of the world do it anyway, and more and more folk born with XY chromosomes are also choosing to dress and live as women.  And why not? 

I have my own shoulder length blonde hair, and so don't have to wear a wig, and my boobs are big enough to give me a good cleavage if I wear something low-cut. But I dress sensibly, and wear what other women around my age wear.  It's great to be able to spend as long as I want looking at lingerie and women's clothes and shoes without feeling embarrassed!  I am working hard on developing a feminine voice; this is a real challenge! More on this is a future blog. 

I hope this has been some help to a few of you - please do let me know by commenting.

'Normal service' - ie. a naughty TG Caption or two - will be resumed in my next blog.

Hugs and kisses x x x Amber

Sunday, 10 April 2011

A Celebrity Visitor comes to St. Hildegarde's High

   Some of you have doubted that  St. Hildegarde's actually exists, and think it is a figment of my warped imagination.  Well, if you have read the final part of 'School for Sissies' in Forced Femme & Girlhood Vol. 1, you will know it is in north Derbyshire, England, near the village of Ashton Cross.
   (To read the earlier parts of 'School for Sissies', see School for Sissies Vol. 1 and School for Sissies Vol. 2.)

   We recently had a celebrity visistor from the U.S.A., who had heard about how we are helping mothers who have difficult and unruly boys - we turn them into docile and biddable girls - and the mothers are so pleased!

   Anyway, can you recognise who our celebrity guest is?  Here's a clue - she flew in all the way from Alaska!

What do I like?

Hi Girls,
   Well, it will be obvious from my own TG Caps here and the TG Fiction magazines I favour (links at top of page) that, if I may slip into my Sothern Belle drawl for an instant, 'Ah jes' lurrrvve' those forced feminisation caps and stories that involve total and complete feminisation, because I guess this is my wish for myself (and I am getting ever closer to it).
    The following elements are essential, in my view - female hormones, growing breasts, and final gender reassignment surgery of the poor ex-male's 'down belows' so the new 'she' has a beautiful and functional clitty and slotty.
    Optional elements to spice it up can include facial feminisation surgery, vocal cord shaving, and maybe breast implants, but nothing bigger than D cups - because who wants to look like a freak?  I prefer to look like a real girl, a girl who can walk down the street or go shopping without getting stared at.
I am talking about becoming as near to a normal girl as it's possible to get, if you were unfortunate enough to be born with only one girly X chromosome, and one horrid boy Y chromosome, rather than two lovely female X chromosomes.
    Remember girls, we all start off female - for the first few weeks in utero, we are all girls.  It's only after - is it 12 weeks? -  that that perversion of nature, the Y chromosome, instructs the tiny male foetus to start producing testosterone, so that what would have been a cliterous starts to grow into that nasty, ugly male appendage, and what would have been the labia of the vagina start to grow together and fuse into testicles, the laughable turkey giblets that hang between the male's legs.
    So why not have a bit of  hormonal and surgical help to turn us back into our true, feminine selves?
   Go for it girls!  Don't just dream about it, you cross-dreamers, put on panties and a bra, and order up some Estrofem to start your transistion to the girl you long to be, today!  (If you want to know the best place to order female hormones online, post a comment to this and I'll put the link in my next blog.  Likewise, I have found at least two excellent online tutorials on developing a natural feminine voice without need of vocal cord surgery  - just ask me!)
   love & hugs, Amber x x x

Sissy Schools and Feminisation Schools first Annual Challenge Competition

Saturday, 26 March 2011

Grateful for any comments

Hello there again girls,

I have done a number of TG Captions and two new videos for your pleasure, and I know you are looking at them because of the number of hits on my Blogger site, but no one has left any comments!

Please let me know what you think!  Are you enjoying my work?  If so, one way you can show your support is to visit my main TG Fiction site, and maybe download one of our electronic publications:

FFG Illustrated Transgender Fiction

If you like my TG Captions and videos, you will almost certainly like our mags, paticularly Forced Femme & Girlhood:  Forced Femme & Girlhood Vol. 1

You will probably also enjoy Tales of Sissy School:

Tales of Sissy School Vol. 1

Tales of Sissy School Vol. 2

And why not try out latest edition of Tales of Crossdressing:

Tales of Crossdressing Vol. 10

That's all for now, my lovelies, but please so order my mags, or I'll have to hitch up my skirt and go on the game again or ask for my job back at the pole-dancing club. 

I'll do another TG Caption for your delight and delectation soon, so keep popping back here and don't forget to visit my website at: FFG Illustrated Transgender Fiction .

You can also follow me on Twitter:  Amber Goth on Twitter

Bye for now, and I love you all x x x

Monday, 21 March 2011

Will all men be feminised eventually?

Hello there girls,

I don't normally blog as such because I know most of you just like to look at TG caps and vids.
But I am kind of interested and intrigued by the incredible proliferation of TG sites and all things TG online.  And so many TG Caption sites, and TG Youtube sites, etc.

I date back to the early 1970s (oh dear, showing my age), when I first came out as a tranny, and being TG in those days was definitely a 'minority sport or pastime'.  Before that, in the 1960s, you could be arrested for dressing as a woman in public - although half the population did it all the time.  Even in the 1970s and early 80s it could be fairly risky. 

It says a lot about the position of women in society in those days - why should it be shameful to dress or wish to be a woman, unless the male-dominated society considered the female sex to be inferior? Thanks to the Women's Liberation movement, women in the West proclaimed their equality and argued against the proposition that the female sex was in some way inferior.  So if women are equal to or as good as men (and many might argue that traditional 'feminine' attributes of cooperation, empathy, compassion, etc. are better for society as a whole than traditional 'male' attributes of dominance, competition, agression, etc.) - then where is the 'shame' in men wanting to be more like women, or actually become women?

I am amazed and encouraged to discover that so many people 'born male', either transition to female or at least dream about being female.  Is this some sort of huge cultural/gender identity/gender roles shift, taking place in N. America and W. Europe (and Japan, and much of the Far East, who have been at it forever, anyway?)

I am thoroughly encouraged, because I think we are all basically feminine, whatever our sex chromosomes say.  Female is the default setting for human kind. 

 The macho/patriarchal shite is a preoccupation of the three great monotheistic religions, which put down women and the divine feminine - so males are just reverting (or 're-discovering') their feminine side, which was always there...

Embrace your feminine side, girls, enjoy it and go as far as you want on your journey towards girldom.  Some of you will only dream, some will take female hormones and dress en femme whenever they can (like me), and some will get their 'down belows' sorted and get their very own clitties and slotties! Maybe I will go the whole way one day...but I would have facial feminisation surgery first, as that,
together with developing a feminine voice, is more helpful for 'passing' as a woman than what you've got in your panties.  Of course, if you really want to feel like a woman, then ultimately, you need to have a nice flat triangle of soft hair between your legs, and lovely labia and a sweet little clitoris, so you have to do your pee-pees sitting down - and how glorious that would be!

We are all sisters under the skin! Rejoice and love your feminine side - it is probably the best part of you.

Monday, 7 March 2011

'Completely Feminised Husbands' video

This video was on YouTube from March - May 2011 and then got banned on the May 22nd and I got a warning from YouTube about inappropriate material.  Please do comment and let me kn ow if you think I really am a naughty girl?

Amber Goth's YouTube Channel